(you had me at hello)

3rd January. sch starts once agn. somehow, i ain't lookingg forward to this dae. tyme reallie flies. i'm sec 4 alreadi?! o.O pls, i'm not at all prepared for it. feels lyke i've jus entered zhss n is still a newbie. sumtymes, how i wish i was just a sec 1 student. i mean, just look at 'em.. so carefree, so playful, no stress, no worries of the most dreadful thing! - o'levels. sighh. i guess i'll hafta face the reality. i'm sec 4 todae n for de next 10 mths. 253 daes to o'levels. yeahh. dats how paranoid my klass is. =x mrs ngiam alreadi had de no. of daes left put up on de board. makes mii realli feel stressed! goshh.

todae? nah, everiiting's de same. yeahh. same frens, same surroundings, same food =/, same tchers. bt diff classrms. hahas. 2e4 moved dwn to de groundfloor - 4e1 moved up to de 2nd floor instead. woah. bigg jam in tha morning, n i onlii rch sch at 7:15! 7:15 u noee! sry to everiione hu was lookingg for mii. paisehh. jam larr! rching late was alreadi bad enuff plus de fact dat i cldn find de tags aniiwhere! feel lyke killinggg ppleee! i was soooo worried. den in de end onli cann find sec 1 n 4 tags. wadevaa. so todae was rather messy. hais, all my fault. bad start. =(

aft flag raising, ms tan toked a lot as usual. toking abt de tsunami n bla bla bla. returned to klassrms n got our personal organiser n yr bk. wow! de yr bk cover sux cann. put wad council photo in front. i can't help it larr, bt to sae *puii!* i thot at least dere's a change to de cover colour - white, compared to de last few yrs, n founf it rather nice FRM FAR. den nvr wld i xpect to see council photo printed so bigg on de cover page! so yucky! =P. n de quality of de student organiser.. sighh. *guess u noe wad i mean. i tink onli super pros can see wad's printed on de world map. =/.

din haf lessons todae. rotted till it was tyme for our contact tyme wif ms tan. sianded man. sit inside audi for almost 2 hrs, listening to hur crap. bt de video was reallie nice! - de miracle mann. i was insipred by his determinationn and will power. he motivated pple in believing in themselves that dey can do it. he himself, although was said dat aft de plane crash, he won't survive. bt, surprisingly, he survived. dat was 1 miracle. de doc said even if he survived, he will be paralysed dwn frm de neck onwards. bt, he did not. he kept tryingg n he was so determined to work towards his goal dat he succeeded. his goal was - to walk out of the hospital without any aids. also, de doc added dat he wld nt be able to eat, swallow, breathe and tok for tha rest of his lyfe. bt he proved everiione wrong. he tired all means and nvr gave up till he has successfully regained his ability of talking, eating, swallowing and breathing. everiione was amazed by his stong will power and how he believe in himself. i definitely learnt a lesson. - whatever the mind can conceive and believe, it can be achieved! =) ms tan aso shared a short video wif us. thou i can't reallie rmb, bt found it verii meaningful. implant a little confidence in ourselves to attain greater heights.

oh well, ms tan took up a lot of tyme and dragged till 2:15 b4 we were released. sighh. den went to sc rm. hadda laminate and do out de class tags by todae. if nt, tmr... dead meat. saw jL, jay n ter! dey came back to sch! whee! lols. de first comment i got frm dem when asked abt their first dae in jc - "wah lao! damn boring!" hehes. glad dey came back. brighten up my aftnoon a lil. den jL helped ch cut hair. so funny. almost gt beaten for teasing ch for his dandruffs. hee! jkjk. went hm wif bao n kwan chiu. toked a lot, and gt updated wif a lot of tings. unxpected tings i meann. dese tings which leads mii tinking abt stuffs. i'll start wondering, start thinking.. will tings be de same lyke b4? will it soon be an ending for mii? hais, i reallie dont noe.

well, i'm no longer active lyke i used to be. everiiting seemed so dull, so hopeless. wonder if it will still hold on aft our departure. i reallie wonder. if it does, den all the better. if it doesn't, i'm not at all surprised. i jus haf no faith. not to all, bt majority. since dey tink dey can do it, go ahead. arrogance will not lead eu aniiwhere, it'll just be a factor to destroy eu. i resent their behaviour, their attitude. its jus lyke wad my mama alwaes sae," wanting to fly when u haven even learnt how to walk. " haiss. anw, good luck.

i dont look positive.