(you had me at hello)

ok, like damnit. i not in a good mood todae. well, at least not for now. fc*k. sorry, but that's how bad i'm feeling rite now. i'm totally stressed out for tmr's exam. lets just put it this way, i'm not prepared for it anw. so it's tis sucky feeling getting the better of me. ya noe? i dont wanto fail my grade 8 exam. i cant afford to. my parents always have tis high expectation of me when it comes to music, and seriously speaking, i hate it. i dont wanto embarrass myself in there. and it's like, i'll be inside for at least 30 mins? and for hell sake, it's 30 min of SHAME. damn, forget it. i'm just not myself. guess it's this crucial grade, it's either i pass, or i fail. and it's whether i can go for diploma and first degree next yr or dont. whatever. i'm just conforming to the stereotype of a typical singaporean dream, isn it so? to haf that bloody piece of certificate with my name and a grade on it. thats it. and for that piece of qualification, it gets me a year to put in all the hardwork. like, c'mon, get real. i do reallie haf that passion for music, not just piano. in the near future, i will still be majoring in piano and sub instruments like the guitar, flute and saxaphone. but.. for all reason, this has to happen and kill the passion. feel like strangling myself. i'm like stuck in the middle of nowhere. ARGHHH. how i wish exams NEVER existed. then, the world will be a more wonderful place to live in. right? okie, say i'm right. sigh- HOW?? i'm sooo ever lost! i nida break. i nida talk. i nida breathe..
OH.. like whatever.