(you had me at hello)

sigh. there's something that is bothering me beneath which i think only sh knows. I can't imagine how much more bleak life will be without friends. Really, they make up half of life and my family occupies the other. Family ties breaking and friendships fading, I am slowly and surely being isolated in this world.

Sometimes I think I am mentally unbalanced, which is a rather crude way of putting it. I'm so cooped up in the world of my own that sometimes i feel like breaking down. I remember I wasn't like that in the past. I was so much livelier, so much optimistic towards life way back before. Something changed me or is it still corroding me bit by bit without me knowing. I couldn't grasp what is it that changed me or maybe I chose to reject recalling it.

This post is so pessimistic eh? i don't know why either. Maybe it's the something that made me feel this way. i hate this me. i would love to have back the previous self. When would it be? i wish i knew. SIGHHHH...

anw, great thanks to regi and belinda too! nah, i don't have a sore throat girl, but do you have remedies for FLU? gee* i need it pretty badly. =/ oh well, at least belinda was there to cheer me up. haha, you go girl ! now you see why friends are so important? =) there goes my night, spent it studying ss and emath, wch is why i'm still not in bed at this hour. ( it's currently 2.07 a.m )

dead.