(you had me at hello)

GOSH, i haven't been updating lately. I'm busy with work, like i've said earlier. I'm trying so hard to make myself just think about work and keeping myself as busy as possible, if not, my mind will start imagining things then, it'll adversely affect my mood.

I've finally managed to settle some things that's bugging me for the past weeks. To do? or not to do? Seriously, i can't make a precise decision. I won't want to regret my choice, but at the same time, the decision i make will hurt. Sigh, however, i still made a decision of course. I hope it's the best of both, and no hard feelings or anything. Regardless of whatever, i still thank you, and i still miss you. Hope it'll be over soon, and let time heals the wounds. =(

Saturday's bbq turned out great. Really superb. Slept late on fri night to prepare the foods, woke up early morning to go to the market, then went over to daddy's fish farm to do further preparation. Man, the process was damn tiring k, trust me. I was like dying to get the bbq started, dying for the clock to rch 4.3o. FINALLY! pple came.. more pple came.. and MORE LIL KIDS CAME! hahaha.

Ms Lim's two lil boys came first. They were pretty sociable, like me. =/ errr. haha` We clicked off almost immediately. Then, my lil terrence came! then candy auntie's two kids came.. aiyah, a LOT of them came aft 7. I played till 11, feeling really enervated. They were so energetic k, running ard with my dog, playing catching, and amazingly, i was part of them. =\ okay, whatever.

Anw, it was loads of fun. At least it did allowed me to stop thinking abt everything. I told myself, i cannot cry, i must be strong, i must let it go someday, somehow. I still hope ... i don't know, but it's still an unfufiled wish. SIGH.

Oh no, it's back, my emotions are back. Hais, i better stop here or i will continue this post feeling down.

i'm sorry.